It’s been long. Too long. I’m coming up to the end of the third week without seeing my kids. Three weeks ago, I was in a car accident. Probably the worst thing to happen to me physically in my whole life. I highly disapprove of anyone thinking that they might want to try this at home. It should only be done by professionals.
The rest of that week is a blur. Fuzzy, disorganized, and excruciating. I’ve said things to people, that I can’t remember. And, I didn’t say things to people, that I thought I did.
Way too much fun.
Single Glass Half Full
But there is good news! The tree successfully lived and is still standing. Just a scratch.
After this happened. I had asked if the kids could be with their Mom this month. While I healed and got myself back in a position to actually be responsible for them.
And this weekend, I get them back. And now I got this feeling in my gut that won’t go away. And, really? I want this one to stick around.
I’ve been preparing. It’s Halloween, so I get a holiday-lite with them to have some fun. What to do? What to do? I’ve been pacing back and forth trying to figure it all out.
Ooh, Ooh. We could go go para-sailing! To which I was quickly reminded that I don’t live near a warm sunny place, and that it is October… And I was asked if I thinking straight.
Yes? Why do you ask?
No reason. Do you have a pen?
Yeah sure, there is one right… Wait?! What are you going to write down?
Nothing? What do you mean?
Are you taking notes?… I got no response on that one, so I’m going to ignore that question. But, para-sailing… Yes. There is hope 
Of course, I could take them to a corn maze… Nope, too scary for the younger ones.
And then it hit me. I haven’t seen them in three weeks! I just want to be with them, close to me. Hugging them tightly and feeding them sugary cereals and junk food.
Well, maybe I will make something healthy. I think I have Ramen. And McDonalds is around the corner.
I’m just playing.
But there will be popcorn. My secret, Dulce De Awesomeness of Carmel Popcorn.
The one thing this has really caused me to think about, is my singledom. During this time, I really started to realize how single I was. You get caught up in work, kids and the financial responsibilities and you don’t notice these things. But! You take away something and force yourself to pause..
Thanks pain meds. I owe you one.
You start to ponder your state, your status… Your acknowledgment that your trucking it alone. And you say to yourself,
Self! I want pie… “Wait, I mean, I don’t like trucking it alone.” Ooh, but pie sounds good too!
So as I go shopping to get them all taken care of, buy health food, getting ready to have them back this Friday. I believe… I will buy some pie.
Oh and ice cream.
Very insightful posts. I enjoy your writing. As a full custody dad of three, it is not always easy to put emotions into words. Keep up the good work.
Thanks. I appreciate the compliment. And, yes it isn’t easy. Some days the typing is as if the floodgates opened. Other times, I can barely get the faucet to drip.
I wish I had your wit!
My single glass is at least 3/4 full. There’s something to be said about independence. But, I guess that will probably get old after a while, eh? Oh bugger.
Thanks! 3/4’s eh? well then, I think I’m running low. lol.
Yes, there is something to be said for independence. But, it will get old. There is also something to be said for being with someone that want’s the same things, and to fall-in and want to constantly work to be in love.