I Come Around Catching Sparks Off You

Also known as, It Makes You Wanna Feel, It Makes You Wanna Try

Well this past week I learned of an engagement… It ran through my mind and took me into all kinds of directions.  Happiness? Sure.  Joy? Not really.  Frustration? Yup check that one off.

Here is a tip on how to be yourself... Just Be Awesome(r)

Not my hair...

The man, who became a part of my life in ways that most guys don’t want other men to become a part of their lives, has just put the step forward into ingraining himself permanently in my kids lives…

Bleh.

Worst part, is there is a lot of “extra” communication between him and I,  about the things going on with the kids… just…. aweso…. oh Hell no [ Odd, I've been swearing more lately ].

It’s buckets of craptistulocity.

What makes this crap, you ask? Since some of you know my side of the story [ There is mine, her's and something in between ] , your thinking, this is a good thing right?  Well yes it is. I am really happy [ See second paragraph ] It’s just that I’m being tried way too much, having to deal with Rainman as the middleman to my kids…  I’m sure there are other single parents out there who just want to punch something just at the thought of having to deal with other people who assisted in the demise. [ There is a lot to this demise, but he personifies it ]

[ Breath deeply.... Take the high road, man... ]

~sigh~

I’ve been complimented lately on how I was able to deal with such levels of crap, whereas most men just crumble into a ball of a mess [ Who says I haven't ] and all I can say is…

Hokey Pokey Anonymous…  Good memories, they didn’t just put my left foot out.  They turned my life around too.

[ That reminds me... I have to call Tiger.  He's been asking for advice ]

So,  I’m focusing on goals, and ways to be stronger.  Cause, at some point someone will fall in love with me, and I want to be tubs of awesomesauce when they do.  And completely and wholeheartedly fall in love with them.  I’m going to have to make sure that some of the baggage isn’t still around when I’m heading to the train station of love

[ Hahaha... Weird Al, you rock! ]

[ I'm told I'm a dork ]

I wonder what makes people say that?  Is it something I said? Well, I’m standing behind the train station of love as being funny…. because… it’s funny!

Where was I, oh yes baggage. Well some of it’s got to go.  This baggage called insecurities, is the first to be chucked out.  I wonder if it would be funner as a bonfire instead.  It would provide a roaring [ Rawr!!! Grrrrrr... oops wrong subject ] amount of heat.

Next… hmm let’s see.

Mmmm, yeah, I think it’s time for more hair…. [ just kidding ] If you don’t like to look at a semi-glowing bald head [ Bawld!!! Grrrr.... oh wait... still wrong subject ] Well, your going to be out of luck…. cuz… It won’t be all about the flowing mane of golden flaxen hair around here. Because I’m part Irish. so it will be the flowing mane of deep auburn red…

What?! Oh, that would require that I have hair… Teehee.