Also known as, Dork! Am Not! Are Too!
Funny, I started to listen to my Jane’s Addiction album today, which brought back some odd memories of a Lollapalooza concert, that I didn’t go to.
[ bah bah bah ]
Ah Perry, if you only knew the drama that surrounded that event. I didn’t go. I wasn’t going to go. No way I wanted to bump into my ex-fiancee.
Sad thing is… I gave her both tickets because she wanted to hold onto them for us…. really it was so she could take her boyfriend. [ Mmmm that was awesome memories! ]
Just at the end of the relationship, she started changing. She went from tie-dyed t-shirt, to full on tie-dyed body outfit… oh yes… it was that… awe.. [wait for it... ] some. She had become a completely different person. I think I realized this when I dropped off the tickets to her and she was sporting this new ear-to-nose chain.
I realized that I was much more laid back, easy going, taking all of life’s awesomeness in. And she started becoming all “high” strung.
Some people are the kind to believe in the fairy tale that is love. Others believe that happiness is only meant for fairy tales. I’m of the belief that I can write my own fairy tale.
[ coming out your mouth with your blah, blah, blah ]
And why not? I can be anything I want. I can ride the white horse. I can just show up and being nothing more than just awesome. [ I had one woman ask me where my off switch was ]. I asked what she meant by that, and she said, “When are you going to stop being amazing?” [ Who knew that opening the car door would get that response? ]
That becomes quite the burden to hold. Because, what if I stop feeling it? What if I don’t believe in the relationship anymore? I’m going to end up hurting someone [ And I did in this situation ]. I dashed someone’s dreams, and it was really hard to think about. So I get gun shy, when it comes to relationships. I want to look for all the right ques. Sense all the right vibes. I ignored those vibes and warning before I was married, and I realized that after we married, I needed to make it work. And it was difficult, painful, and filled with sadness… I won’t be making that mistake again. I prefer to be patient, and ponder over the person that I may be dating.
[ I'm seeing it in my dreams ]
Doesn’t Perry Farrell look like a scrawny, less angry version of Henry Rollins? [ Who by the way, made "The Chase" that much funnier ]
*sigh*
…still so secretive. So many questions I want to ask. So many blanks wanting to be filled in!
IntrigueMe´s last blog ..Nobody made a greater mistake than he who did nothing because he could only do a little. -Edmund Burke
I have so many blanks…
Which ones do you want filled in?
Do you have a brother who gets Shaun of the dead, The hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, and is single? If so, is he anywhere in the vicinity of Kansas?
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Travis, yes, Perry does look like a scrawnier version of Henry Rollins. I like Jane’s Addiction. I like the fact that you will write your own fairy tale. That way, you’ll know the beginning, the middle and the ending (or, rather, maybe it will be a never ending fairy tale). -Pipi
Pippi´s last blog ..Baby, my room is the G spot, call me Mr. Flintstone, I can make your bedrock…
I’m not sure what the title had to do with the post, but I love Ke$ha. So do my kids. My son texted me from a middle school dance to tell me the DJ was playing Tik Tok.
I like some of Jane’s Addiction stuff. My kids used to refer to “Been Caught Stealing” as the “barking doggie song”.
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If you look through out the post, you will see her lyrics… I was listening to her song “Your love is my drug” and then it jumped over to Jane’s Addiction “Stop” (The album version has a really cool introduction to the song) and between those two songs [ Yeah... super weird combo ] My mind just kept pondering how we feel so addicted to wanting to be in love… and then the second to the last paragraph was more of my fighting a sense of addiction to wanting to just jump into love for the sake of it.
And, of course Jane’s Addiction caused me to think, “oh, Ke$ha sure acts addicted…”
Of course I was working on a coding problem at the time… hence, the obscure title…